WTF!?!?

Wow the past two week was life changing. High school chicks are fucked up... in many different ways. None of this happened to me but damn. Do they ever think about what they are doing? And Do they think of other feelings?! WELL SIMPLE ANSWER IT IS BIG N!!! O!!! NO! all they care about is themselves. I mean at this age I don't expect much of anyone trying to think of others. But damn... one day you say... there may be a chance we can get back together. Next day you go and fuck other guys... one day u say we are best friends forever... next day you wants me to pay a the bill so you can go fuck with other guys.... WTF we are not tools... we are human we have feelings and we are not a bank... We don't have to do shit for you... you say we owe you... WE DON'T OWE YOU SHIT.... WE DON't FUCKEN NEED THIS SHIT FROM YOU.... GO AWAY!!! GET OUT OF OUR LIFE...

Double D with a C

I been seeing this girl name Deedee, she is a nice girl. But I am afraid that we are moving to fast. Also I am scared that I can't match her status. She is a very smart girl, all honor/ap classes. I like her, I really do. I wonder how would this relationship turn out. I am going to wait and see what is going to happen between us and just let whatever happens, happen.

Basketball vs BSS

I begin wondering if I made a bad decision when I choose Brighter Side over Basketball. I just can't stand all this drama going on and all this bullshit people are doing. I love performing, and I just love making people smile. But I can do that with basketball as well. I just don't know if "this" decision I made was the smartest one for me. I had good times with this group, but I began to doubt it. I really wish I can go back and really think about it.

Nothing

As the year goes on, I began hating this group of people. They are just full f themelve. In their world there is only them, it doesn't matter what happen. They will put themselves first. Just like today, they told us the move the box from the outside to te right side of the stage. No one seem to care. Only me John and Derek seen to have heard, so we each took one. But when I set them down, I notice there was only three. So I walked in the room to see who has more. But no one took any and they are just sitting there talking to each other. So I walked out to bring in the other box. A girl name Melissa saw me and came out to help but as soon as she saw her friend, she went to back to them. So at the end I have to carry te rest of the box by myself. It really bugs me that no one cares, they think everything are just handed to them. Everything will fall into place. If I didn't get the box for them, they are all screwed... Why are teenager so selfish... I just want to watch them fail. Just Fuck up so hard that they can't redeem themselves. And that good fellow name John... He is no longer here. He is done with us, me and Jerry are counting him out.

Fame!

Brighter Side is fun and all, this is probably the most entertaining year of my high school career. I have so much fun in BSS and I met a lot of new friends. Being a rookie, I don't get all the attention or the fame that the returnee gets. Well I am not that good anyways. But some rookies are really good, they can really sing. But lately I see people's confidence grow, and their personality changes as well. I notice some of my friends' attidute changes, their behavor changes as well. People began having problems with each other. Best friend turns on each other, friends stop hanging out with each other. It just sad to see that friendship is falling apart. Not only the rookies, the returnee are just the same. I don't know how to deal with it.

Asking Her Out

Well everything been pretty settle, Deedee and I are getting along really well. We don't need to see each other every single day and every single minute. That just what I wanted. Well Winterformal is coming up soon, I was thinking of asking Deedee. I am sure that she is expecting me to do something. But I just had No freaken Idea how, so I been asking around, and my friend Sean gave me a great Idea. Everyone period during monday, I will send her a rose with a card saying Will you, Go, To, Winterformal, With, and finally when I give "me" I will be waiting for her and asking her to winterformal. I think that would be really sweet, but I just don't know if I can do it... because it would be hard to talk to all the teachers. Well wish me luck =)

Unsure Feeling

After a few month of, I tried to start all over. I began to pick myself up. Along the way I came around a fellow name John. He reminds me myself as his girlfriend began to treat him differently. At that point I know that the relationship was going to end, also I decide to help him out. Not because I was smarter or anything, the reason I know that relationship was over was because I had experienced it myself. Me and him became good friends, we know we had each other back. Well back to the topic, as I began to start over, I began to have conversation with this girl name Deedee. She is not the most popular girl, nor is she the hottest girl. Whatever, it doesn't really matter. Well we went the movie, we watch Avatar, and things just begin to heat up. But I told her, I am not ready to commit to a relationship. Because I am not sure about my feeling for her either. I don't know if I truly like her or am I just using her as a rebound. I have a special feeling for her, and I enjoy her company. But I don't know when will those feeling going away. I don't want to think about that when I am with her, but it just bugs me whenever I am with her or when I am talking to her. This unsure feeling is killing me.