Brighter Side Camp

Well the past week was one of the toughest week of my life. It was Hell Week for Brighter Side Singer. Oh my gosh, we have to wake up at 8 and get to school by 9 everyday. Then we have about 40 for lunch/Dinner. We practice until 9 at night. Every morning. WE will warm up by singing some do re mi. After a short warm up. This African-American guy name Denny/Danny Wells, who was a former Brighter Side Singer, would come in and make us do abs and arms work out. That workout was not fun at all T_T... One of the girl cried because if we are not together, we have to start all over again. That day we started over at least 2 times. We do some stretches afterward. My leg was hurting real bad the first day from the stretches XD. Well after we are done with the workout. We start the choreography. It was tough on the first day. All the new Brighter Side Singer, including me, has no idea what to expect. We runs the song over and over again. It was SO boring at first. But after two days, the choreography was finished. We began to pick up small spot and start to cleaning it up. Monday, we had a rookies/returnee's routine and we have to preform it in front of the teachers and student. Tuesday we had a rookie/rookies routine On Weds, we had a short workout out then we head off to the beach and hang out. We had a sandcastle contest. Of course THE BASSES WON!!! WOAH! We owned everyone. But it was fun and all. On Thursday was back to work. Because Thursday night was potluck with parents. We had to perform our two songs in front of our parents. It was great, it was the first time my parents seen me dance and sing. On friday we had a short day. We ran a 3/4 of a miles as warm up. We began to pack up the stuff and put the stage away. At noon, we left and went home to prepare a dinner at the hollywood bowl. It was a theme contest, we went to Santa Anita Park at 5 30 and got on the bus and went to hollywood bowl. We walked the the stair and began our picnic. After dinner we watched a concert. Which wasn't the best, it was kind of boring because it was not our type of song. It was the older generation songs. Not eveyone enjoyed it. But overall, it was a great day. We got home around 12 at midnight. That was the conclusion of the camp.

But I MISSED CAMP T_T... I MISSED MY BSS FAMILY!!! T_T can't wait until school starts!!!

Is It The Right Thing To Do?

Well last friday I did something that I don't know if I should have done.

I brought a Rose and wrote a letter to my Ex-Girlfriend. I found a old lady who lives there to help me put it in the front table she had. But as I was leaving, I saw a man, with a hat on, reading it. I am not sure who he is. But I believe he was her dad. But I am not sure. I lefted as it is. Trying to be friends with her. But I have not gotten a reply from her or anything. I am not sure if that letter scared her even more or what.

Still I wonder if that is the right thing to do

A Day With The Great David

So today was just another Church Sunday. I went to church, I sat there listening to songs and the speaker talking about God. Blah blah all those usual Sunday, if your a Christian or attended church will know what I'm talking about. Well after church I went out to eat with my friend David. He is more like a counselor but I still consider him as a friend. He is married around 32 years old. So he is like double my age. We haven't really talked for a long time, so he invited me to go eat with him and do a little catching up. Well it was a fun time to really talk to someone I can share to and get a different point of views. Because he is older and he had more experience in life than most of my friends, considering the fact that we are only 17 or 18 years old right now. I know I can get an answer from him, so I told him what was going through my life.

Because I just broke up with my girlfriend Shelly, so my world seems slower and pointless. Because of her, I see the dark and the evil side of the world. I finally see how cruel this world can be. You can say I am growing up and getting mature. It is true, you won't believe until you experience it yourself. Regardless how big or how small the thing may be.

Here is a little example, Life is like a hurdle race, there are many hurdles you have to jump. When the gun was fired, you sprint to the first hurdle, and you jump. It is easy, but here comes the second one, you look back. You wonder why it seems harder and taller. The Third one you barely pass it. Finally you got the fourth one, you began to have doubt that you can jump over it. You jump and you trip. Are you going to stay down and forfeit the race, or you going to try to finish it even when you know you have lost? Are you going to pick yourself up and finish it?

What I am trying to say is, don't ever give up. The Past is a Wonderful thing, because it teaches you not to make that same mistake, But don't let the past control you. Because each hurdles is like our problem, Each one will seems harder and harder, do not let it hit you and make give up on the race. Get back up and Finish the race! Because at the end, your friends and family will be at the end of the race holding you and be with you.

David also told me some Christian example and stuff, after hearing him talk. I feel much better, not because I know or I believe in God. I realize I was tripped by one of those hurdles, but I did not give up, I got up. Now I am preparing to jump the next one. I realize I am not as weak as other people told me. I believe one day I will jump over this hurdle. When my kids, or other people are going through this problem, I have something to offer them as a word of wisdom.

Turned up side down

The past month or two, I had alot of time to think back on my life... But I don't know why this is so hard to put down, but I am able to let things goes easily, and my anger had gone down sinces I stop worrying too much. But today just got to me. I just exploded... I am sitting here thinking what have I done wrong and what can I do better next time. But her, she is out with her Ex Boy-Friend at Mcdonald having Ice Coffee, taking picture and having fun. I sit here trying not feel bad and try to get over her. She is out with other guys watching movies, going to the beach, and other stuff she did.

It cross my mind... Does she even cares? Why am I sitting here and feeling bad while she is having fun? WHY?! Why am I doing this to myself?

When I looked through her picture and comment on facebook. A sudden rush of anger and saddiness rush to my head. I can not stop the screaming in my head and the tears in my eyes. Why am I so useless? Why am I so emotional?

It is OVER! I told myself. She doesn't love me anymore. She doesn't care! The only made it worst. I can not stop thinking every I love you she said to me. I wonder how many of those I Love You is true?

P.S. for some reason my dream was her and her ex. But I did not know about it until today. It is a very weird dream.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HELP ME I WANT TO DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH FUCK THIS WORLD FUCK THIS WORLD FUCK IT ALL CAN GO TO FUCKEN HELL!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK I FUCKEN HATE YOU ALLLL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK YOU!!!!!!!!! FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I FUCKEN HATE YOU ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL I WANT YOU ALL TO DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK THIS LIFE FUCK THIS WORLD FUCK YOU GOD! FUCK THIS AINT LIFE THIS IS HELL! WHY CANT I DIE ALREADY?!?! FUCK MAN I FUCKEN HATE EVERYTHING!!! I FUCKEN HATE YOU SHELLY SEE I HATE YOU!!!!!!!!!!! I WISH YOU FUCKEN DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I AHTE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I Had A Weird Dream

So last night I had a really weird dream. The Dream was my ex-Girlfriend was getting married. I just finished school and I went home. I found a letter of invitation. I opened it and it was her invitation to her wedding. It was weird, because we are only 17 or maybe 18 but that still too young to get married. But when the day of the wedding came, I decided not to go. For some reason I turned on the TV, and it was showing the wedding. It was huge, and she was really pretty with her white dress. The guy was her ex-boyfriend. They were holding hands and taking pictures. The wedding about the start. Suddenly tears run down my eyes. I began to cry. But my parents were there, so I did not want to let them know I was crying. I turned away and wipe away my tears. But my mom saw me crying. She came up and said something*I don't remember what she said*. I turned to her and nodded. I continue to watch the wedding. They were walking down to the father, my eyes began to tear up again. I put my head on my arm and started to cry really bad. My dad looked at me and talked to my mom. My mom told my dad that I really loved her, and finally I decided to trust her. She went and break my heart. My dad walked up to me and said stop being so selfish and stop crying over a girl like that. But I stood up and yelled Yea I LOVE HER! So what? IF I am selfish, I would have went to the wedding and said something about it! I WOULD HAVE STOPPED IT! Then I ran to the window. Some reason I can see the wedding from my window.*see dream don't make any sense XD* then I began to look at it from the window. I heard the Vow they made to each other. I start crying again. This time, I wonder if she really meant those word she said. She love him? What about the time you told me you "LOVE" me? What happen when u said you want to be with me forever and ever? Was it all a lie? So am I the Rebound or is he the rebound? I don't know how, but I think she heard me and she looked over at me and had a evil smile. But I did not hear she said I do, because my mom woke me up. But I realize how much...

I still love her. I will cry for her even till this day. I still get mad when she is with other guys. I loved you so much, why did you change so much? We could have the future together. You ruined it!

When will I put this down? When can I pick myself up again? Who can I trust? When will I find that one person I can trust and won't let me down?

I Found A Song

Well the last few days, I been listening to some songs. Luck me, I found one that I really like. I can relate that song to myself. The song is kind of old. Not a new song that for sure, but it is really good in Chinese. The reason that I like this song is because it has many different meaning. It depends on your mood. Chinese song are so tricky, one word can have many different meanings.

獻世 - 陳小春 *there are many meaning to this word 獻世... Some say it mean useless, Some say to life for no purposes and some has other meanings. But whatever it may be this is how I feel about this song

My translation may be different from other people but here it goes

I don't want to give you anything... because I don't know what to give you... Then what Can I give you? What Do you want? What Do you want from me?

I don't have the courage to think
You don't want to see me
Then what can I do
If I show up, but you will be unhappy
Because you feel embarrasses.

You were my secret, I was you trash.
It doesn't matter if I show up or not.
Tonight is your birthday,
You wish one day, I will disappear

I will save my tears for myself
You don't care what I say, it is like I am barking to you
I won't regrat this relationship
You want me to make you a promise
to leave you before I embarrasses you?
Am I that useless to you?
But Whatever happened, I will close my eyes
I love you so much, what can I complain about

We were never too close, So I don't have the guts to cry in front of you
I don't mind being Lonely, it is easier to love you

Whatever happened, I will close my eye and pretend nothing had happen
I don't mind being sad, but I don't want to be useless

... Okey so basically this song is about a man falling in love with this girl. He loves her deeply. She claims she loves him just as much as he loves her. But everytime he tries to make a move, the girl rejects him. Everytime he claims that she is his girlfriend, she would feel embarrasses. She doesn't want him around, whenever he talks to her, all she hears is him blahing on about random stuff. She never cares about what he has to say. The guy was sad, but he can not give up on her. Even when he knows it would be easier for him to end the relationship. But everytime he wants to do it, he can not take the courage to say it to her or he can not let her go. So he just close his eyes and pretend nothing happened. So basically that the song... Hope you enjoy it as much as I do... If you have different feeling for this song leave me a comment =P

A Sad Story

During World War two, a couple was force to be apart forever. They were happily married, they had two kids. William is 9 years old, and Josh is 6 years old. The family lived in Seattle, USA. Jerry, 35 years old, is an Chinese American, who came over after World War One. He started a small business that sells T-shirt. Sarach, 30 years old, a Japanese American, who came over before World War One. She came over as a student. The first time they met, Jerry and Sarah fell deep in love and decided to get marry after 2 years of dating. They have their own little place in a peaceful neighborhood.

But peaceful time did not last. War in Europe breakout, Germany and Japan from an alliance against Frances and Britain. War for America is not the first choice. Jerry and Sarah did not think their love will be put to the test. But when Japan bombed Pearl Harbor, all Jerry and Sarah's hope is gone. America had joined the war. Because of Sarah's background as a Japanese woman. She was send to camp where all the other japanese people were send too. Jerry was send to fight the war in europe.

Before their departure, they made a vow of love. After the war, Jerry will come back alive and be with Sarah. Sarah will survive the camp and take care of the children. Sarah gave a necklace to Jerry to keep. Inside there was a picture of her and the children. She told him to keep it with him at all time.

Jerry was send to the 55 machine gun division. His job wasn't to fight, he was the driver. He drives a truck who has all the guns and bullet in it. Jerry meet a young man name Kelvin. Kelvin is an African American who lived in Chicago. Although they are two different race, they became close friend. They have alot in common, they both fight for their family. Kelvin's wife was pregnent but he could not pay for hospital, the only way his wife can give birth in a hospital is if he join the army. Kelvin is a very strong minded person. He swore that he will go home after the war and take care of his baby. Because they were both in the same Division and Kelvin was the guard who guard the Truck that Jerry drives. They became close friend.

Kelvin and Jerry's division was mainly serve as a defense, therefore they did not see much action. It been 2 years, since they were sent to Europe. Jerry and Kelvin been through many attack and they both survived. With the war coming to an end, Jerry and Kelvin was send to the 3rd Divison as the front assault. They were preparing for the D-day invasion. Jerry took out his necklaces and look at it. He remember the vow he made to his wife. HE WILL NOT DIE. He will live and go back home to see her.

The ship had stopped, Gun fire was everywhere. The sea had turn red, bodies were flowing everwhere. The gate dropped. Jerry rushed out with his machine gun. He ran arcoss the ocean with Kelvin next to him. They fall behind a post to take cover. They stare at each other in the eye and said to each other "it is great knowing you, let do this!" with one nodded they both rush out and charge to the ground. Jerry and Kelvin made it through the first part. now they must climb up the mountain to destory the bunker. Kelvin throw the rope up but he left himself open. A sniper shot Kelvin in the arm. Kelvin fells to the ground. Jerry grab him before the second shot comes. They hid behind a rock where they are safe. Kelvin's arm was bleeding. Jerry grabbed him and yell at him. "YOU CAN NOT DIE HERE, YOU HAVE TO GO HOME AND TAKE CARE OF YOUR WIFE!" Kelvin ripped his shirt and over the wound and told Jerry "I will cover you, you have to climb up that rope and destory the Bunker" Jerry nod and counted to 3. Kelvin rush out holding his gun with one hand, he began to shoot at the mountain. But another shot came and hit Kelvin in the Leg. Jerry scream and looked at Kelvin. But Kelvin stood up and told Jerry not to worry and complete the mission. Jerry continue climbing. Finally he go up and he planted a bomb and destoried the bunker. After a long day, the attack is over. Jerry rush to Kelvin to see if he is okey. Kelvin had 4 shot, one in the arm, two in the leg, and one in the left chest. But it was not enough to kill him. Kelvin was send to a hospital to heal. Jerry continue to fight while Kelvin was in the hospital. The 3rd divison continue to advance. Jerry kept that necklace close by. Without his best friend, Jerry has to go through it alone.

With the last stand of the Nazi, the 3rd divison advance to Berlin. Jerry walked out of his tent and looked up. Kelvin stand right in front of him. Jerry and Kelvin hugged and talked for a while. Kelvin told Jerry that he is back to fight with him. They shook hand and vow to live together and die together.

The 3rd divison destoried the Nazi's army in less than an hour. No chance the Nazi can stop the attack. The American armys cheer as they took the Nazi's soldier as prisoner. Jerry and Kelvin cried as they walk through the street of Berlin. They made it through the two and a half year of hell. But fate can be twisted, a German soldier on the ground took his pistal and aim at Kelvin's chest. He fire a shot with his last breathe.

The medic rush up to the Kelvin. Kelvin stun as he look down to the ground. Slowly fall to the ground, Kelvin's tear fall on Jerry's chest. Jerry took his Necklace and told Kelvin to bring it to his wife and tell her that she is sorry. The medic push Kelvin away. The stopped the bleeding. But Jerry was not moving at all.

Kelvin returned to America, he moved to Seattle with his family. He walked to Jerry's old house. He saw Sarah and the kids crying. He walked up to Sarah and hugged her. He took out the Necklace and handed it to Sarah. He told her "Jerry was a good man, He never took the necklace off. Every night he will open it and talk to it like it was alive. He always tell me about you and his children. And I will tell him about my family too. We were really close. He told me he can give me a job after we come back from the war. I would laugh at him." Kelvin break into tears as he tell Sarah about the story. Sarah looked at Kelvin and told him "I would love it if you can help me run the store." Kelvin took Sarah's hand and shake it. "I will not let it fall"

Sarah and Jerry's love did not break apart. Sarah took care of the family and the business with Kelvin. Every Night Sarah will open the necklace like Jerry did during the war and talk to it. The only thing is the picture is different. Jerry lived in Sarah and Kelvin's heart forever as a Great Husband and a Great friend.

Wait So? Huh? Ohhhh, Yea you are "RIGHT"!

Well today I had a talk with my friend Cheryl. She asked me some question, at first I didn't want to open up to her. But I feel like just letting it out to release some stress. At first my explaining wasn't really clear, which led to many different topic, and small confusion. But I realize why I been so depress or so quiet.

I realize human being is a terrible races. We are full of hatred, jealously, and anger. I begin questioning myself while I was talking to Cheryl. Why do we do stuff base on our feeling? If we do things or make decision base on personal feeling. Then what is the point of life? Why do we still go to school to learn what is right and wrong? I realize I am just like that. I do a lot of the things base on my feeling and my beliefs. But I never consider if that is the right thing to do. Simple as buying my Ipod. I want it, but I don't need it. But I convince myself that I NEED IT. Why did I do that? Because I am a Human Being, we are selfish. We are so focus on our self, we can not see the whole picture of a situation. A lot of people do not see that, they only see themselves. They think everything they do must satisfy their need.

But I don't blame them. That what make Human being so unique. If everyone is caring or always considering other's feeling, we won't have leaders like George Washington, Adolf Hitler, or Joseph Stalin. This world will be completely different.

With all these thinking and talking to my dad and other people, I learn that there isn't an answer to Right and Wrong. Because everyone have different feeling and different beliefs. Then how are we to say "he is wrong and I am right!"? My dad told me it is a simple matter, he gave me a good example, there is a driver with a two door car. It can only fit two person, himself included. So he stopped at by the side walk, there is a Pretty lady *which he loved for his whole life*, there is a doctor who saved his life before, and there is an old lady who is about to die unless she rush to the hospital. There is three different chose and all of them can be correct base on what you believe. You can choose to girl because you love her, or you can choose the doctor because he saved your life. Or you can choose the Old lady because she is dying. But this one guy may have another way to solve that question, then another has another. On and On, there is a infinite answer to that question.

Then he told me, because we have different thinking doesn't mean everything you believe in is true. In other people's eye, it can be wrong. It is up to you to convinces them that you are right. All you can do is learn and next time do it better if some people doesn't agree.

A lot of the laws are more like guide lines to life. Because of this example, if you got picked on by a guy on the street. He pretends/or does throw a punch at you. Your reaction is to hit him back. So you beat him up. You were not wrong, because it is self defense. But in other people's eye you are wrong because you choose to fight back. Some will think you are right because they think there isn't anything else you can do. So this situation has two different thinking, you have to think back on it and realize what you should have done or could have done instead. So you can gain other people's support

So What I'm trying to say is... There is no limit in life, there are many different solution to the same situation. It may be the first time you got into an accident, you may not make the smartest move, but next time you do better, and the third time you already know what to do. All you can do is find a way to do better and show other people that it is a correct ways for that situation. Don't be blinded by "I THOUGHT!, I DIDN'T KNOW!, or I WANT TO", Etc.

Past, Present, Past?

Every moment in life is very important. Every second that passed is consider History. One small change can create a whole new future. So should the Past be more important than the future? Without the Past, there will not be a future. Why should we live in the present or live for the future? We should live in the Past and study the History. Everything we have is the study of the past. It leads to the future, which we lived in right now. All the technology is gather past studies and experiment done by PAST scientist. Therefore history is the reason we lived and it should be the reason for us to live.

Puppy Love That Last for 10 Years... Puppy or True?

Here is a little story about me. Iet go back to September, 1, 1998. It was the first day for me as a first grader. First grader always get picked on by the older students and I wasn't the exception. But my eyes were blinded by this girl I met. You can say it was love at first sight.

It was the first day of school, we sat in the classroom waiting for the teacher to show up. It was quiet as I can remember, because everyone were shy to talk to each other, and girls have cooties. We waited for 5 minutes. Finally the teacher came in, we all stand up and said "Good Morning". She turned to us and said "Miss. Chau". Then we said it again "Good Morning Miss. Chau". Miss. Chau was young and pretty. Later at recess, all the guy in my class are talks about her all the time, like how pretty and how cute she looks. But I never find her attractive, because this girl had stolen my heart already. Miss. Chau made all of us stand up and sat us alphabetically *last names*. My last name was "Wong", so I have to sit in the back. BUT out of everyone in class, I had to sit next to this girl. Her last name is the same as mine. We took a small glances at each and at the same time we said "HMMM" and turn our head the opposite way with a piss off look, like we hated each other for a really long time. We didn't look at each other for almost an hour. Our head stay facing the opposite way the whole time. But my luck had change, suddenly a BLACK, GIANT, SCARY BEE flew right next to her face. Out of nowhere, she turned her head and she screamed as loud as she can. She grab my arm and tell me to kill it. Because of her screaming and movement, the Bee would not leave her alone. It just flew around us over and over again. Miss. Chau turns from her blackboard to see what was happening, she screamed and told us to move slowly to her sit. The girl grab my arm and stood up slowly with me. One step at a time, we walked up to Miss. Chau's desk. By the time we reach up to Miss. Chau's desk, the girl's eye was full with tears, and with all the strength she had, she grabbed my arm so tight, like I was going to let go and push her in a pit of fire. Miss. Chau had open up all the window in the class, we were all waiting for the bee to fly out the window. It took more then 10 minute before the bee decided that there isn't any flower or anything it likes. Finally he decided to leave to bother someone else. She came up to me and the girl, and told us to go back to our sit. We got up and walked as fast as we can. When we got to our sit in the back, the girl thanked me and gave me her name. "Wong Sie Long" That was the moment I fell in love with her. I looked right into her eye when she gave me her name. Her watery eye had drowned my heart with it's tears. She was amazing, she has the prettiest eye I had ever seen. I move slowly down her face, her nose was just right, it fit perfectly with her face. Big but not too big, it is just the right size. It was just PRETTY. Her lips were small, any guy who saw it would want to kiss it. Also the words she said are the sweetest sound I have ever heard. I was stunned when she was done with her sentences. It was like FML moment, if that bee didn't come in, I may have never meet her. I just stared at her and she laughed at me. She asked for my name. Little did I know my face had turned red not until she told me. I gave her my name after a short moment of silence. "Kelvin Wong* She laughed again and said "Well nice to meet you, sorry about earlier. Did I grab you too hard that made your face all red?" I laughed and begin talking to her. She was the sweetest, prettiest girl I had ever met.

Most amazing day of my life. Day I will not forget, First grade, First day, First Love.

A Tomorrow To Look Forward To?

Everyone said "a new day, a new start". They told me "the past is done, you can not change it, and you should look forward to tomorrow!". I believed that for as long as I can. BUT what does my tomorrow contain???

I know what I want in my futures. I know what I need in life. Then how come my life is so gloomy? Why is my "tomorrow" seem so sad and empty?

WHAT IS MISSING? WHAT SHOULD I DO?! PLEASE HELP!!!! =(

A memory behind the rings

Do you remember those pair of rings you gave me as a present? Do you remember what you put inside? On mine "SS <3 KW 7/31/08" and your said "KW <3 SS 7/31/08". Every time I look at it, I think about you. I miss you. But I can not stop thinking about those words? SS "loves" KW. Did you mean it? DID YOU? It hurts to think about it. Because I believed it was true. But now, I doubt it now, =(. WHY did this happen? What happen between us? Did you stop loving me, or is there someone else? Why are you leaving me hanging like this?

Dear Shelly See

Dear Shelly See

I hope someday you may have a chance to read this. All I want to say is thank you for everything you had given to me. From the day we meet till the last day of our relationship, I will remember you. No matter how old I am, Shelly See will be in my memory. You had change my life like no other. Good and bad, my life will never be the same. Although we didn't accomplished everything I once envision, and our relationship had came to an end. But I had, and will love you forever and ever.

Love, with alot of love
Kelvin Wong

Hey I am Kelvin Wong

Well before I post anything else, I will talk alittle about myself. My name is Kelvin Wong. I am 17 (as of 2009). I am a guy of course. I am Chinese, I was born in Hong Kong. I moved to USA when I was 10 years old. My english is not too good. Especially my Grammer. =( yeah. My hobby is playing PS3, playing basketball, running, singing *but scared to sing in front of people* and I like to daydream. I really enjoy sitting somewhere quiet and just do some deep thinking*daydreaming*. I am not emo or anything. But I really like to be alone at someplace where is quiet, and calm and just daydream. I also like to hang out with my friends, we will go play ball or gym. Sometimes we go eat and play games together. I am into all kinds of music EXCEPT emo Rock music. I like everyone until you piss me off. >=) I am a christian *not a good one but i believe in God*. That pretty much it well have fun reading to whom may wanna read this XD