The past month or two, I had alot of time to think back on my life... But I don't know why this is so hard to put down, but I am able to let things goes easily, and my anger had gone down sinces I stop worrying too much. But today just got to me. I just exploded... I am sitting here thinking what have I done wrong and what can I do better next time. But her, she is out with her Ex Boy-Friend at Mcdonald having Ice Coffee, taking picture and having fun. I sit here trying not feel bad and try to get over her. She is out with other guys watching movies, going to the beach, and other stuff she did.
It cross my mind... Does she even cares? Why am I sitting here and feeling bad while she is having fun? WHY?! Why am I doing this to myself?
When I looked through her picture and comment on facebook. A sudden rush of anger and saddiness rush to my head. I can not stop the screaming in my head and the tears in my eyes. Why am I so useless? Why am I so emotional?
It is OVER! I told myself. She doesn't love me anymore. She doesn't care! The only made it worst. I can not stop thinking every I love you she said to me. I wonder how many of those I Love You is true?
P.S. for some reason my dream was her and her ex. But I did not know about it until today. It is a very weird dream.
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